When your closes doesn't support you.

Whenever your closes doesn't support you, that moment one think comes in mind that is Is my i such type of bad person. very sad moment in life that time neither interest  to do some important work nor to take breath. I feel today this moment in my life, i want to stop my breath but i can't. 

I am trying to batter mood but every step fail to make me normal, When time is going slowly slowly i feel so nervous myself. 

One thing i learn from this moment is, every time it comes with new version of nervousness, i feel sad more then previous time. Some time one thing comes in mind to talk with their but next moment comes a suggestion myself to stop to talk with their, if you talk with their without they feel your value then they always take you lightly in life so once they feel your value in their life until doesn't talk with. 

I was try to control to switch off my device and all communication devices but i can't continue more then 3-4 hours, i switch on my devices and show is they try to contact me, i have to disappointed myself, they doesn't try to contact with me like they happy without me. 

When i see, i'm more broken inside. But still i decided this time i will not contact with their until they will not feel missed me in their life, or my importance in their life. 

I every moment missing to them, i am unable to my important work, which is most necessary for me but my has not want to do not only today but last five days. If i will not utilized this time now then i will lose many thing in my future life. But know one voice comes from inner side " Who have seen future."  

Get over form this time should do try to diverted your attention form that particular, one is do something which you like most of and other is which i am doing, write whatever thoughts come in mind, write either with paper-pen or digitally. 

This is most effective technique to some relax in your mind. 

Always share your problem with another that may be a person or paper-pen, but doesn't store in your mind, it's most dangerous. 

Life always checks your patience, it's takes you more close then previous time. 

"Something happen in your life, always for do better your life."